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Parashat Shoftim: The First Step to Teshuba

I know a number of individuals who, unfortunately, struggled with alcohol addiction, and were helped by joining Alcoholics Anonymous, where addicts come together to receive help and give each other encouragement. Alcoholics Anonymous follows what is known as the "12-step program," whereby recovery occurs gradually, over a series of 12 incremental stages.

The first step is when the addict stands up in front of the group and announces, "My name is So-and-So, and I’m an alcoholic."

This might sound simple and unnecessary, but the truth is that this is the most difficult, and most important, of the twelve steps.

Some people who join these groups stand up and say things like, "My wife made me come." Or, "I only have a few drinks here and there, it’s not a big deal." It is only those who are truly committed to recovery who can stand up in front of the room and say the words, "I am an alcoholic."

But this is the first necessary step to change – to take responsibility, to accept guilt, to acknowledge that one has acted improperly and wishes to improve. Without this first step, change will not happen.

When G-d confronted Adam about eating from the forbidden tree, he said, "The woman whom you placed beside me – she gave me from the fruit and I ate it" (Bereshit 3:12). He did not accept responsibility. He blamed his wife, and he blamed Hashem who gave him his wife.

When G-d confronted Kayin after he murdered his brother, Kayin said, "Am I my brother’s keeper?" (Bereshit 4:9). The Midrash explains that Kayin turned to G-d and said, "You’re His keeper – You should have watched over him and protected him." Kayin refused to accept responsibility. He blamed G-d for not protecting Hebel.

Each weekday throughout the year, and during the special Selihot prayers which we recite in Elul, we declare Vidui – confession. In this prayer, we pronounce, "Abal Anahnu Hatanu," which is commonly translated as, "but we have sinned."

It is true that the word "Abal" is normally used to mean "but." However, in this context, it seems that a more precise translation would be "indeed." We say to G-d, "Indeed, we have sinned."

This phrase brings to mind the confession made by Yosef’s brothers. They had felt confident that they had done the right thing by selling him as a slave, as they had determined that he posed a grave threat to the family and needed to be sent away. But when they came to Egypt to purchase grain, and they found themselves beset by crisis, they realized that they were being punished for what they had done to Yosef. And they announced, "Abal Ashemim Anahnu" – "Indeed, we are guilty" (Bereshit 42:21). Targum Onkelos translates the word "Abal" in this verse to mean "Be’kushta" – "in truth," or "the truth is."

This translation gives us insight into the essence of Vidui. It is about acknowledging the truth. It is a declaration that we are no longer making excuses for our wrongdoing. We are no longer blaming other people or external factors for our mistakes. We are accepting the truth, as painful as it is – that we have acted wrongly.

This is a very difficult first step, but this is what we need to do if we hope to change. Elul is the time to acknowledge the painful truth, to stop making excuses for our behavior, to accept responsibility, and to believe in ourselves that we are capable of being better – realizing that G-d gave us this month because He believes that we are capable of being better.


Sefer/Parasha:
Parashat Hukat: Singing for the Torah
Parashat Korah: Aharon’s Respect for His Fellow Jews
Parashat Shelah: Shabbat – Our Collective Obligation
Parsahat Behaalotecha: Attitude is Altitude
Parashat Naso: Our Collective Responsibility
Shabuot and the Exodus From Egypt
Parashat Behukotai: The Unparalleled Power of a Group
Lag BaOmer: Profit Sharing
Parashat Ahare Mot/Kedoshim: Keeping Hashem’s Presence Among Us
Parashat Tazria-Mesora: Self-Destructive Arrogance
Parashat Shemini: Caring for Our Sacred Soul
Pesah- Unity as a Prerequisite to Redemption
Pesah: Seeing the Goodness In Others
Pesah: Reexperiencing Spiritual Redemption
Parashat Vayakhel: The Satan’s Weekly Visit
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